I’m better off out of this horrible life
I have no real family no friends no wife
I don’t see the point in suffering anymore
I’m totally depressed suicidal on the floor.
I have no ambition no energy no dreams
I’m too scared to sleep terrified of the screams
I’m trapped in the dark and I cannot escape
I’m internally battered naked and raped.
I’m lonely as hell ravaged by fear
Rotting from the inside destructive and queer
Hanging on for dear life no hope of salvation
Starved of love mental abuse filth contamination.
I’m a dead man walking ignored dismissed
If I were to die right now I wouldn’t be missed
I carry my guilt my swine my knife
I’m better off out of this horrible life!
© Kelvin Rush